Anonymous asked: do u have anything encouraging to say for someone feelin kinda shitty & super afraid of the future? pls/thx xxoo
darling darling darling, the future is never going to get here. It will always be three days away, five days away, four months, six years, twenty lifetimes. it will always be too far away to ever deserve our worries. I do not say this to invalidate your anxieties, but to let you know that you have nothing to worry about. we’ve all got some shitty, muddy hole we forget to crawl out of sometimes. whether it’s the hole of insecurity, of not enoughs, of i am so ugly, of unknown futures, of lost virginities, of caved in beliefs, of weak strongholds, of existential crisis, of always being left, of lost love, love lost - whatever it is, we all have some sort of hole that we crawl into sometimes and it is okay to sit in there to feel what you need to feel, but sometimes we need to crawl out. so what i have to say to you is this: you’re feeling kinda shitty and super afraid of the future, well I am too. let’s sit in this hole together and worry about the days that will not come. let’s sit here and relish in the fact that we are not alone in this. let’s sit here and understand that our lives are more intricately woven with the lives of other people that sometimes we forget to ask for help. let’s ask for help. let’s talk to our parents and our friends and say “i dont know what comes next” and then let’s let it happen. let it unfold before us. the future is never going to get here but we worry anyway, and i promise you that it is okay. it is okay to not be okay with the unknown. but you’ve stretched out your hand and i can tell you that is the first step in allowing yourself to step into the unknown because you had no idea what i was going to say or even if i was going to respond. the only advice i have to offer you is this, sit in it. sit in your bad days in your unknown days in your shitty days in your insecure days and allow yourself to feel it. those feelings deserve to be felt. now allow yourself to get up. the world has had billions of people walk through it, just as afraid as you are, and we’ve got artists and mathematicians and singers and librarians and interior designers and moms and dads and teachers and thinkers and scientists and businessmen and they are all doing okay now. i am sorry you are feeling this way, but you are okay. you are safe. you are secure. you are going to be okay.